"On page 80 at the end of this chapter, you'll find a blank calendar. The page shows only one month, so if you have more time than thatm photocopy it for every month you have. Ideally, you should have three full months to study. If you have less than two months to prepare, however, don't despair; just get going on your study plan today."
The previous "Step 1" paragraph was part of my introduction into the world this morning. Just like many days before it, my day began with time before the Lord in His Word. Usually this is followed by about 1 1/2 hours of studying in the library before I head to classes or a meeting to get things moving.
However, today was unlike any day before. You see, I take the G.R.E. tomorrow (commonly known as the General Record Examination). This Examination is the entry point into graduate school. Most of my future plans hold on this exam which I scheduled back in August when planned the next three month study times to include equal opportunity to review for the issue and argumentative essays, and the verbal and quantitative portions of the exam. Yes, back in August when I was naive enough to believe I would have enough time to study for such a monstrous exam during my senior soccer season.
In short, my study time has been limited to the 2 days after I scheduled the exam... August 30 and August 31 where I studied 20 vocabulary words and their meanings... which I am unable to recall at this moment.
So I began studying this morning after reading the above paragraph. I looked at my good pal Marty and said... 'Hmm... do you by chance have an hourly calendar, because I certainly don't need to photocopy the monthly calendar provided. Woops!' So I may be screwed.... maybe? hopefully not. I'm having to contend against this feeling of helplessness (strongly) because I know that God is bigger than my circumstances. In fact, I am His workmanship and He is making me into the woman He desires for me to be, right now. And when I truly believe that and strive to live that truth in my life then I have confidence that He who began in good work in me will continue that good work, despite my frailty and failings. Am I making God small by pitying my capacity to be human? I'm not sure. But I know that in all things we are more than conquerers through Jesus Christ who loves us and gave Himself for us. So that we may have life, and life most abundantly. To feast at His table and not stop by to fill up on grade D taco bell meat (fast food) or hot dogs at gas stations that have been heating up just for you for the past 12 hours (-pd) that momentarily satisfies on the road to His fulfillment and fullness.
well, this was more for me than for you. enjoy life. happy thanksgiving! feast. | 
